we’vebeenarguingmorethanweoughtto.aboutthingsneitherofus
rememberorcareaboutcausethat’showweavoidthebiggerquestions.
insteadofaskingwhywedon’tsayiloveyoutooneanotherasoftenas
weusedto.wefightaboutthingslike:whowassupposedtogetupand
turnthelightsofffirst.orwhowassupposedtopopthefrozenpizzain
theovenafterwork.takinghitsatthemostvulnerablepartsofone
another.we’relikefingersonthornshoney.weknowexactlywhereit
hurts.
andeverythingisonthetabletonight.likethatonetimeyouwhispereda
namei’mprettysurewasn’tmineinyoursleep.orlastweekwhenyou
saidyouwereworkinglate.soicalledworkbuttheysaidyou’dalready
leftacouplehoursago.wherewereyouforthosecouplehours.
iknow.iknow.yourexcusesmakeallthesenseintheworld.andigeta
littlecarriedawayfornogoodreasonandeventuallybegincrying.but
whatelsedoyouexpectbaby.iloveyousomuch.i’msorryithought
youwerelying.
that’swhenyouholdyourheadwithyourhandsinfrustration.half
beggingmetostop.halftiredandsickofit.thetoxininourmouthshas
burntholesinourcheeks.welooklessalivethanweusedto.lesscolor
inourfaces.butdon’tkidyourself.nomatterhowbaditgetsweboth
knowyoustillwannanailmetotheground.
especiallywheni’mscreamingsoloudourfightingwakestheneighbors.
andtheycomerunningtothedoortosaveus.babydon’topenit.
instead.liemedown.laymeopenlikeamap.andwithyourfingertrace
theplacesyoustillwantto****outofme.kissmelikeiamthecenter
pointofgravityandyouarefallingintomelikemysoulisthefocal
pointofyours.andwhenyourmouthiskissingnotmymouthbutother
places.mylegswillsplitapartoutofhabit.andthat’swhen.ipullyou
in.welcomeyou.home.
whentheentirestreetislookingouttheirwindowswonderingwhatall
thecommotionis.andthefiretruckscomerollingintosaveusbutthey
can’tdistinguishwhethertheseflamesbeganwithourangerorour
passion.iwillsmile.throwmyheadback.archmybodylikeamountain
youwanttosplitinhalf.babylickme.
likeyourmouthhasthegiftofreadingandi’myourfavoritebook.find
yourfavoritepageinthesoftspotbetweenmylegsandreaditcarefully.
fluently.vividly.don’tyoudareleaveasingleworduntouched.andi